Bela is going home !

I finish varnishing Bela yesterday . I love how the varnish creates a wonderful soft protective final coat on a painting . Today I will cut up lots of protective cardboard and bubble wrap and find the perfect box ,so Bela will have a safe trip home.  Bela and Coopers mom and dad are the special people who take care of dogs and cats , they are veterinarians . In fact the commissions of Bela and Cooper will be hanging in their new veterinary office and even better is the name "BelaCoop Animal Hospital of Northpark . 

Bela and Cooper have passed on , but I feel that part of them will be here forever , and they will help guide their mom and dad to take care of all the animal that pass through their doors . 

I will also be shipping out a paintings  of a German Shepard and Dachshund for their exam rooms . I truly hope that my paintings will bring joy and comfort to all that have a need to go to BelaCoop Animal Hospital . 

I have been off treatment for a week and half . No picc line ....my arm is free ! I wish I could say it has been clear sailing . But it is one day at time , and I am so thankful for a much needed break from I'V antibiotics . Be well my friends ! 

Cooper is home , and my soul is full of simple abundance

What ever we are waiting for , peace of mind, contentment, grace, the inner awareness of simple abundance , it will surely come to us , all theses traits are found in our dearest friend our beloved dog .
Dogs carry their serenity with them , a shady grove tree, a special toy and of course just green grass will make a joyful dog .

To capture and paint this joy , this simple abundance is a blessing to my soul . I know this is why and what my inner spirit is meant to do . Thank you "Cooper" for being part of my authentic life .

A note from Coopers Mom !
HI Pamela!! Cooper arrived today at 5pm and I have never been so excited! It is absolutely beautiful and just amazing! I had tears in my eyes just looking at the box! And when I looked at the painting, I cried and hugged my husband. Sam says that the background is so perfect and makes him look so happy and comfortable. He said it looks heavenly, like Cooper is smiling down on us. I like to believe that. It really is the best thing I have ever gotten! I love it! Thank you so much for doing this for us! I can't wait to see Bela! Thank you again!!

Life at the crossroads , looking with hope .

The Rockefellers wanted to have a mural put on the ground-floor wall of Rockefeller Center. Nelson Rockefeller wanted Henri Matisse or Pablo Picasso to do it because he favored their modern style, but neither was available. Diego Rivera was one of Nelson Rockefeller's mother's favorite artists and therefore was commissioned to create the huge mural. He was given a theme: "Man at the Crossroads Looking with Hope and High Vision to the Choosing of a New and Better Future."[1] Rockefeller wanted the painting to make people pause and think.[2]

I had a wonderful phone call for new commission today of a very special dog . Mixed with a multitude of emotions I said yes, a yes with full disclosed of my daily struggles with treatment . A yes with a promise I would email Anita so I would not forget the facts of the conversation. A yes that said I will do my very best , but explaining I have weeks when my paint brush does not move.

I live my life in the crossroads, going forward only to then go backwards , but then slightly forward . I live my life looking with hope to a new and better future. I live my life in the crossroads, not knowing what the next day will be. Little Lu comes to me when I am really sick from treatment . She lays her head on my chest , she knows , she is so gentle and peaceful around me . It is amazing , I can feel her strength and her kindness. I am blessed !

I hope to have a good day soon and see my brush hit the canvas again . In the mean time I will be in the crossroads looking with hope and high vision to choosing a new and better future .

Cooper is done !

A fresh coat of semi gloss varnish covers my painting today creating a lovely soft finish . Tomorrow I will mount the hanging hardware and begin looking for a box for shipping . Four months , one painting . Emotions are mixed with disappointment and pride. This size painting would normally have taken the old Pam a month . The new Pam takes four months . The Pam of six months ago could not even have painted it. So I am humble and thankful at the same time .

As I was varnishing cooper today , I wonder to my self if my art has change ? My life has change , I am no longer old Pam . I will never be old Pam. Hard to look that one in the face , but illness changes you . I do think my art has change , my brush strokes are softer, as my strength is not the same . I do see more of my heart, on the canvas , maybe more vulnerable as illness does this.

My desire to paint has not change , it is still there, calling me . My passion is strong , but my body is not always willing . So on that note I am proud to write I will be shipping cooper home this week . My first painting of 2013.