Life at the crossroads , looking with hope .

The Rockefellers wanted to have a mural put on the ground-floor wall of Rockefeller Center. Nelson Rockefeller wanted Henri Matisse or Pablo Picasso to do it because he favored their modern style, but neither was available. Diego Rivera was one of Nelson Rockefeller's mother's favorite artists and therefore was commissioned to create the huge mural. He was given a theme: "Man at the Crossroads Looking with Hope and High Vision to the Choosing of a New and Better Future."[1] Rockefeller wanted the painting to make people pause and think.[2]

I had a wonderful phone call for new commission today of a very special dog . Mixed with a multitude of emotions I said yes, a yes with full disclosed of my daily struggles with treatment . A yes with a promise I would email Anita so I would not forget the facts of the conversation. A yes that said I will do my very best , but explaining I have weeks when my paint brush does not move.

I live my life in the crossroads, going forward only to then go backwards , but then slightly forward . I live my life looking with hope to a new and better future. I live my life in the crossroads, not knowing what the next day will be. Little Lu comes to me when I am really sick from treatment . She lays her head on my chest , she knows , she is so gentle and peaceful around me . It is amazing , I can feel her strength and her kindness. I am blessed !

I hope to have a good day soon and see my brush hit the canvas again . In the mean time I will be in the crossroads looking with hope and high vision to choosing a new and better future .