Creating art requires a massive amount of energy and brain power. I am struggling in both departments. My new normal is all about energy management . If I over do just a inch over the line , my body and brain crumble under my constant battle with Lyme disease and co- infections. This has become so frustrating ,one day what puts me over the edge can be the exact opposite of the next day . It's very easy to know when I have cross this line , my body screams with pain and nuerlogical symtoms . The hard part is listening to my body before it gets to that magic line of no return .
My heart may say let's draw today and my body says no I am in to much pain . The next day comes and my heart says let's draw today and my brain says no , to much pressure and inflammation . So what my heart says does not often win .
My heart won three times in the last couple months . Good thing I am soooo stubborn and my heart never stops asking .
