Reality meets Stella !

My brain lesions are still here. Yes there was a secret little voice deep down inside me hoping the MRI of my brain would be different. I have read on line , as some people heal , so do their brain . Alas , mine are all still there, damaged done . 

 

So , now I will figure out how to go forward , with cognitive issues, memory problems ,and communication issues . Words and numbers are scrambled in my brain , and are very difficult fine. As I write this blog I realize I am not giving up my fight for good health, but I will no longer let these brain lesions stop me from creating my beloved art work . Yes, this blog may take me  over a hour to write and it may not be in perfect English , but I am going to do my best to communicate with the world . 

Meet " Stella " a silver lab who lives in Florida . Stella will be my next commission . I am very excited to get back to my studio and put brush to canvas. I look forward to capturing those soulful , sweet eyes and I see a background that dances with color ....more to come ! 

Cooper is home , and my soul is full of simple abundance

What ever we are waiting for , peace of mind, contentment, grace, the inner awareness of simple abundance , it will surely come to us , all theses traits are found in our dearest friend our beloved dog .
Dogs carry their serenity with them , a shady grove tree, a special toy and of course just green grass will make a joyful dog .

To capture and paint this joy , this simple abundance is a blessing to my soul . I know this is why and what my inner spirit is meant to do . Thank you "Cooper" for being part of my authentic life .

A note from Coopers Mom !
HI Pamela!! Cooper arrived today at 5pm and I have never been so excited! It is absolutely beautiful and just amazing! I had tears in my eyes just looking at the box! And when I looked at the painting, I cried and hugged my husband. Sam says that the background is so perfect and makes him look so happy and comfortable. He said it looks heavenly, like Cooper is smiling down on us. I like to believe that. It really is the best thing I have ever gotten! I love it! Thank you so much for doing this for us! I can't wait to see Bela! Thank you again!!

Life in our studio , love and puppies

As a artist, you long for those magical hours of putting brush to canvas. It is as simple as breathing and as vital . But I have learn new lessons from my battle to regain my health. Yes my art and my soul are intertwined, but with out my fellow studio mate, best friend, and someone I adore all would be lost. Thank you Anita, for sharing our studio with me, for dancing to music , playing with pups and smiling back at me . Our studio will be open this spring and all are welcome .....pups too . This blog is for you Anita!

For the Love of dogs

They come into our homes and steal our hearts. They make us smile and giggle and laugh out loud. They snuggle , lick , bark and wag every day. They make us slow down and go for a walks and pay attention to nature. They are soooo joyful .

As a artist my goal is to capture that joy and spread that dog love again and again. This is a high standard to live up to . The greatest moments in my sketches is feeling that joy or tenderness , that I see in the eyes of dogs. It is all about the eyes. I can not express what a true honor it is to sketch a beloved dog . So , lets celebrate the love of dogs today !

People I admire , Lana Schippers !

We may never meet in person , yet Lana Schippers , my wonderful face book friend is a person I admire greatly . Through the years we both have suffer the loss of losing our dogs . We both have faced the big crack in our hearts that ache everyday when your pack is out of balance . But what is amazing about Lana is her passion to let her heart grow bigger and adopt another dog .
To have the kindness and compassion to welcome a new little girl into her family . What this little girl does not know is she is in her new wonderful forever home . Yes , it will be the best home she will ever have . I wish I could remember her name , but I will , my slow brain will learn . Yes Lana has much compassion for my lack of words , that Lyme disease has taken from me .

Lana donates her time helping Iowa Wiem Rescue ...which I am sure I spelled wrong .lol
Again Lana will forgive me, because she knows my great big heart and love of dogs makes up for my non functioning brain . Lana works full time and then some at Printing By Designs supporting herself , family , and her pack of beloved dogs . Not a easy task in these very difficult times . Lana loves art and design , I had the honor of creating a sketch of her beloved Jay .

Lana I admire you greatly for your passion and your great big heart . Enjoy every moment of love , laughter and joy , this lucky little girl will bring to your heart .

Your dear friend Pamela Creamer .

Dogs, Art , Lyme and Hope

Powerful lessons have come to my paint brushes this year. They have not moved a inch , they no longer have paint on them , and I have sat still myself as go through treatment . It has been brutally hard, and I have lost my way in darkness at times.

I have sat for hours as IV antibiotic slowly infuse into my picc line that goes to the top of my heart and then the antibiotics can flow straight to my brain . Poison in poison out ....and the beat goes on with treatment.

I have cried more than I ever imagine a person could , as my brain has been swollen from treatment which leads to anxiety and panic. Through the tears, I search for relief , I prayed for relief , I cried for relief.

I needed my art, I miss my art, .....I am lost. What can I do sitting in this chair ? Out came the sketch pad from my hero Anita . Out came the color pencils. Can I do this....?

Oh my poor brain , struggle, more struggle, frustration . Can I even sketch again ? Do I have the strength . Little by little I struggle to sketch , everyday I do not know if I have the strength or the brain power . I have learn to forgive myself for days I can not sketch and to be soooo thankful for the days I can .

Each sketch is a gift, a gift of hope....a gift of kindness. With each sketch I find the joy of friendship in them . The passion of dogs ....with each sketch I reach for good health. With each sketch I reach to live beyond my chair. To all out there who struggle , look into your dogs eyes and learn a powerful lesson , never give up ! Because dogs never ever give up on us .